Tick, Tock

Oh NO! My biological clock is ticking. Good news is, I have a sperm donor in California, a future husband in Austin, and apparently my dear friend (who is also ticking away) is pimping out my uterus ('cause I'd make cute babies jk, but I'm sure I would ;)) and since she wants one too, I think I'm gonna auction hers off on EBAY. so no matter what, I got a couple back ups. Oh, and if your interested, layaway may be available upon completion of my education. just kidding. Of course I want it the old fashioned way, but if all else fails I have options lol. Unfortunately, this all started because mostly everyone around me has kids or is pregnant. My best friend has the most adorable baby boy in the world. Every time I see him I think my uterus starts seizing reminding me that I am getting old and my eggs are dying. Just kidding. Just look at him! I fall in love every time I see him.
My main goal was to have a steady career so I wouldn't have to struggle when I do have a family. Since I am so close to having my career I am ready for the next step, or am I? I am, but at the same time I find it strange that as I get older a part of me seems to enjoy my life (with out having kids or having to answer to a husband), I guess I can be a little selfish, OK, OK a lot selfish, but what's wrong in having fun and enjoying life? I know, though, I will always feel incomplete with out kids. There has been a time when I was ready, however, not financially. I was pregnant but unfortunately for whatever reason, I lost it. I was heading into my second trimester. I look back and it hardly seems real any more. I took it really hard, but I see now that it was for the best and I don't feel bad for thinking that. My time will come. Patience is a virtue. And besides, I can love on little "Goosey" all I want until I get my very own...